I was listening to a podcast once (I think it was The Mind Palace) where one of the hosts said about art that "you have to be willing to kill your babies." By this she meant to convey the practice in creative fields of making something with your whole heart and then recognizing when a project just isn't meant to be - and killing it. It's a massive part of the artistic "circle of life" which I kept myself in denial about until fairly recently, and it's really the only way to grow as a creative person.
Don't worry! I'm not killing my blog. I'm just using this space as a place to think out some of my ideas on creativity and evolution. Because that's what I'm going through now.
I think part of the reason I was so hesitant to embrace this idea of quitting and moving on from projects is that it felt like that would never allow me to actually finish becoming myself. How weird? As a creative, I felt that there was a goal ahead where one day I would magically become a successful [fill in blank] and at that point my life would actually start. This is complete nonsense!
We tell ourselves there's an end to the journey, but the truth is nothing is really safe from change. Nothing will ever remain the same as it is now: not our homes, our creations, our family structures, our friend groups. Nothing is safe from change in the ever-evolving world. That's just not how it works. Nature is built upon the promise of a changing wind, season, year, or era. We are part of that change in every small way.
So I gave up on trying to achieve anything "in the end."
Of course, I still have smaller goals for myself. But creativity is embracing the beauty and craft available right now and accepting that everything will change with the seasons, including you. It's a wonderful, temporary world we live in, and the moment I embraced that was the moment I started actually getting anything accomplished in my creative life.
Do you have an end goal in mind? Do you think it's helpful or does it hinder your ability to evolve? I'm really curious about this topic, so chime in if you've got a thought!